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i cant decide if i love my friends or not.. theyre either the best people ive ever met or the worst who hate me and think i should die

guess who got her STUPID FUCKING PERIOD BACK TODAY ?! not only am i on my period (boooo) now it also means im "recovered" and FUCKING FAT AGAIN (BOOOOOO)

im fucking opening up and i cant stop it this is so embarrassing

i honestly dont know who i am.. i dont know if the person i am in front of people is even real. i dont even know how i really feel, who i really am, what i really act like

rant time !!

i FUCKING HATE my bitchass friends. i can just TELL how much they couldnt even care about me. the only reason they are ever nice to me or even remotely PRETEND to give a fuck about me is when they want to copy my work. i went to sit with them for lunch and guess what ? they couldnt even be bothered to save me a seat, just so these 3 girls who NEVER eat with us could sit there. they gave me some fake ass apology which was so forced im not even joking. i feel like the girl im closest too doesnt even care about me either, none of them FUCKING CARE ABOUT ME. im sick of prentending to be happy around them and making sure theyre ok just for them to be like this.. im debating leaving them so they cant hurt me first. I CANT DO THIS SHIT IM SO FUCKING SICK OF ITTT.

and this one girl always gives me some half ass reason to quit when she sees my scars. "just stop !" AS IF THATS HOW IT FUCKING WORKSSS IM SO FUCKING DONE

i think im just going to put all my energy into doing well in school and give up with them. they dont even fucking want me so why should i care. ive tried so fucking hard to be friends with them and yet theyve barely cared in return.

and sometimes i feel like my best friend only sticks round now in hoped that i help him get with this girl.. i really cant do this anymore i have no friends and im so lonely i cant do this i really cant i might as well just wreck it all before they can

ugh im so exhausted even my friends noticed today.. kinda forget i gotta keep up this happy energetic persona i created for them.. im not sure how much longer i can do this

might just drink a shit load of coffee before school tomorrow nd pray it does something..

grieving the fact i used to be such a good student now i have to force myself to care..

(i fell asleep in class again)

ugh the one person i care about is being dry might kms..

ughhh im so mad. my best friend has this crush on a girl nd want MY help askin her out ૮╥﹏╥ა the thing is though, im like, so fucking jealous for no reason ? i dont have a crush on him (lesbian nd all) but i just dont want him and this girl (who was also my friend) getting together cuz what if he stops talking to me.. i feel like hes the only one who actually gaf about me nd the rest of my "friend" group doesnt even want me there.. sigh

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