IN SACRIFICE OF THE CHAPTERS I WAS SUPPOSED TO READ SINCE I ONLY WATCHED THE ANIME AT FIRST AND FINISHED IT, I READ THE RECENT ONES AND WAS ONLY MET WITH HEARTBREAK AND CONFUSION. NEVER, IN MY LIFE, HAVE I CRIED OVER SOMETHING SO HARD FROM A STORY. A MOVIE YEAH BUT LIKE THAT SHOULD MAKE ME CRY, BUT SOMETHING LIKE THIS? AND I CANNOT EVEN EXPRESS ENOUGH PAIN IN THE FORM OF JUST TEXT. MY THEORIES ARE FUCKING RUINED, MY FAVORITE CHARACTER - GONE, PEOPLE - DEAD, FYODOR IS BEING WEIRD AS USUAL, AND I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL OCTOBER FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER? THEY CAN TAKE THEIR TIME MAKING THIS STORY BUT I GENUINELY WILL NOT BE ABLE TO COPE UNTIL THE NEXT ONE. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW???? HOW WILL I GET THROUGH THIS??? I HAVE NOT ENOUGH GOOD INFORMATION TO HELP MY THEORIES AND I HAVE TO START FROM SCRATCH. I AM MESSED. UP.