I Crave Validation - Blog Posts

im feeling down but theres nothing i want to do or buy i dont even wanna buy food which is something i always wanna do whenever im upset

was supposed to play overwatch with a discord server im somewhat active in but like no one showed

i hate having no friends. being alone is fun until youre reminded that youre truly alone

and like i really want to share the fact that im having bottom growth and have people tell me in that moment that theyre proud and happy of me but i have no one :’)

might just post it randomly to a discord server im in meant to tmen and get my validation from there

and im constantly like “i wish i had a bf” but i really dont wanna use dating apps they fucking suck

grindr is so damn scary and comes off as “scam the app” then i feel like shit using any other dating app i dont wanna swipe on ppl thats mean

idk. just sad and lonely rn

I finished ep.1's script! Let's goooooooo!!!!! 4713 words total and ep.1 is over! All i have to do now is storyboard, animate, voice-act, and upload... I'm not worrying about that right now. WOOOO EP.1 IS OVERRRRR

I added 1,877 words to my script today so now I feel really nice inside. Please, Tumblr, make me feel validated.

Wip for one of my animatic projects

the rest of it is still a long way off from being discernible to those who don’t already know what’s going on, but eh   

(song is ‘Karma’ by AJR)

A writer friend told me something that broke my heart a little bit today; they're going to quit publishing their fanfic.

My instant thought was that they had been trolled or attacked or that something terrible had happened in their life because this person is so passionate about their writing. It wasn't any of that. Engagement with their works has been going down, as it has for many of us. Comments are like gold dust a lot of the time, and just looking through the historical comment counts on old fics on ao3 demonstrates this trend very clearly. It was not simply the comments dropping off which caused them to decide to stop posting, however.

My friend came across a discord server for their fandom (I should point out here that their fandom interest and mine diverged a couple of years ago, we stay in touch but don't currently read each other's posts because I'm not into their fandom and they would rather gouge their eyes out with a wooden spoon than read anything Star Wars) and specifically to share fic in that fandom. They joined, because we all love a good fic rec, only to discover that their latest multichapter fic, which has almost no comments and very few kudos, is being hotly discussed in this server as one of the best stories ever. Not one of these people has bothered to say this to them on the fic. When they asked, none of participants could see the point in telling the author of the fic they apparently loved so much that they love it.

This discovery has absolutely destroyed my friend's love of sharing fic. They share because they love seeing other people's enjoyment, and fic writers do that through comments and kudos/reblogs/likes because we don't get paid. There is no literary critic writing a blog post/article about how amazing the story is for us to copy and keep/frame. There is no money from royalties. All we have are the words of the people reading our works.

Those people on that server could have taken five minutes of the time they spent gushing about how amazing my friend's story was to other people and used it to tell the one person guaranteed to want to hear that praise how much they loved it. They could have taken a moment to express their opinion to the person who spent hours upon hours plotting, writing, editing, and posting those chapters. Instead, they deprived my friend of thing that keeps them sharing their writing, and in the process have killed their love of it. My friend now feels used and unmotivated.

I won't be sharing a link to their fic, they said I could share their experience but not their identity. I know they plan to post one final chapter. I know they intend to express their hurt at being excluded from the praise for the thing they created, and I know they intend to announce that as a consequence they will not be posting for a long while, if at all.

So please, I beg you, don't hide your love of a story from the writer. It's just about the only thing we have.

Trying to come up with a new funny metal commentary meme to post so that I can get the attention i desperately crave from metalhead tumblr