the stars were all aligned, and i found comfort in you instead of the self destruction i knew so well. it was like you had moved the stars into alignment, you were so heavenly to me. but as soon as you left, the stars began to fall from the skies. my constellations broke, and stars began to fade. i returned back to the self destruction. sharp blades found their home on my ghostly skin, drugs that people my age shouldn’t even be aware of were my closest friends, i found security in the arms of naked strangers. you were my safety, and now all i crave is danger so that maybe i could feel safe again.