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Lovely
I’m happy for you
You stop caring and I’m happy for you. I’m not someone worth thinking about anymore really.
I hold a lot of baggage and that’s something you don’t need right now. Or ever.
So I’ll be happy for you because I think being away from me is the best that life will give you.
and I’m a lot, I know. And I’m sorry.
I wish I was loved by you like the way you loved your loved ones.
I wish I was loved by you like the way you loved your loved ones. And it's funny but I should’ve read the signs, we were never as close as I thought we were. I admired you. I looked up to you. and that's where it stopped. That's where I should've realized that everything would've never been reciprocated.
Fingertips were always barely touching the glass it peered though. And maybe just maybe, I was the object on the other side, surrounded by long panes of glass, unable to escape. Maybe I was meant to be observed by you, but never truly loved by you.
It’s been 8 months now and I haven’t heard a word from you. I hope you know I miss you. But it’s time I stop trying. No more waiting to hear your voice, for invites on nights where I get lonely, on days where it’s rainy & the sun won’t shine. I've had enough. and I hope everything I gave you was enough. Because maybe truly, I’m meant to be alone to be able to finally break down the glass.
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Remember Bailey
Join Bailey as they try to uncover the memories from their past with the help of Sammy. But remember, once you begin to look, you may regret what you see.
More details of my new story below!
This is my new project I've been working on!! I hope people will enjoy this series I'll be making!
now that he is gone, she must find someone new.
- lover
Rivi is 22 years old. they use He/Him & She/Her pronouns.
they have been professionally diagnosed with:
panic disorder
depression
PTSD
they are currently questioning if they have aspd, bpd, ppd & stpd. They might also be on the schizospec.
they do see a therapist & psychiatrist.
also pls don’t hesitate to message him if ur curious about anything or just wanna strike up a convo!!
also, feel free to reblog. i don’t mind.
It wasn't the fact that everyone else's parents were proud of them, except for mine
It wasn't the fact that my parents never seemed to have time for me, so I settle for watching other kids with theirs
It wasn't the fact that I thought that a loving family was just a tv trope until I was invited over to other people's houses
It wasn't the fact that while other people's parents praised them, mine belittled me
It wasn't the fact that I had to rely on teachers and other parents' praise just to feel like I had someone in my life who liked me
It wasn't the fact that everyone else had goals for the future but I didn't see myself living to adulthood
No
It was the fact that my eyes were slits and my skin was jaundice compared to everyone else
It was the fact that people treated me like a zoo animal for their entertainment
It was the fact that everything I ate was poison compared to theirs
It was the fact that I had nobody else to relate to
It was the fact that I was the only one who didn't experience it
It was the fact that I was the only one who did experience it
It was the fact that my identity was nothing more than a punchline to them, just a joke
It was the fact that I had to pretend everything was fine and laugh
The only thing I can do is laugh, otherwise I'll just cry
That's what broke me
That's why I'm broken
ᴀɪʀ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ʜᴇʀᴇ sᴛɪʟʟ sᴍᴇʟʟs ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴄᴏʀᴘsᴇ
ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴄᴀᴍᴇ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴀʟʟ ᴅɪᴇᴅ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ
ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ's ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴡᴏʀᴛʜ ᴅʏɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ
ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴀɪɴ'ᴛ ᴛʀʏ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ.
