Tw Suicidal Thoughts - Blog Posts
Nothing
I fr just wanna give up on life, man…
Might be part of something larger.
TW: depression, self-harm, suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts, blood
Red. Red was a beautiful color. It wasn't her favorite color but there was something enchanting about it. The way it flowed down her arm into the sink, taking her pain and memories with it. She couldn't tear her eyes away even if those people were screaming at her. Red. Down her arm. Red. Down the sink. Red red red. Down the drain. It was the only time she felt okay. Though she had to do it often since the feelings didn't last long. The relief, the comfort she felt in her skin for once, how she finally loved herself in those moments, it was all too short. She needed more red. Enough to last longer. To last the rest of her life. It was the only way she'd ever be okay.
tw: suicidal thoughts mention
transcript under the cut
08/08/2023
I really thought about ending it all, all day today. Life feels unbearable and has been for so long.
At 19:30, [...] arrived by train in Porto and decided the first thing he wanted to do was treat me to dinner. He didn't even stop at his house first, straight from the station to mert up with me, just because.
So, with all that spontaneity and affection in the world , we walked around [...], ate kebabs, bought plushies to hug and browsed a bookstore. Not only he decided to buy The 7 Husbands of Evelyn Hugo just because I said it was good, I looked at this book, said I loved flowers and he picked it up to add to the other one he wanted. Only after he paid he gifted it to me, knowing I wouldn't accept unless tricked into it.
I have people that make life worth living, and they're capable of gestures of kindness and affection bigger than any of my doubts. I don't know if I'll enjoy this book or not, but it will always be a wonderful reminder of that.
So...I was giving permission from @cheshiresartblog to write this story idea based off of their Nomu Trio AU. It’s an idea that I got after listening to The Princess and the Frog soundtrack for hours on end.
I really, really shouldn’t be doing this because I have other AU stories in mind (one of them being a huge crossover), but since this is based off of two things that I’ve watched (in BNHA’s case watched and read) I think it’ll be easier to write. So here’s the basic plot.
WARNING: Spoilers for BNHA and The Princess and the Frog ahead! Will also contain mentioning of depression, suicide, and disturbing themes.
Shouta, Hizashi, and Oboro have been dating each other since high school and dream of opening a hero agency using an old abandoned building.
Years pass by, and something happens to Oboro and Hizashi, causing them to ‘die’ in battle. Shouta went into a spiral of depression and hardly interacts with his family and friends. Nemuri decides to help Shouta reconnect with society by taking him to a party. But at said party, Shouta hears some devastating news.
The building where he and his late boyfriends were planning to set up their hero agency was going to be bought by some land developers.
Shouta ran back home as grieves over not only the loss of his boyfriends, but the loss of the one dream that they shared. While on his way home, he doesn’t pay attention and gets hit by a car.
As he’s rushed to the hospital, the doctor who works for AfO tells Shouta’s family that he had ‘died’ due to committing suicide, and proceeds to take him to AfO to be turned into a Nomu.
More years past and Kakureru works for the League of Villains, but he feels like he’s missing something and tries to remember his past. Suddenly, he remembers that the doctor that supposedly saved his life was the one who killed him in the first place.
He was the one who was driving the car that killed him.
After convincing the flirty Raiu and the music-loving Kurogiri to leave the LoV with him, they start to connect with each other. Shigaraki, Toga, and Dabi tagged along because they had nothing better to do.
Then the three Nomu start to remember who they were, which causes them to question themselves.
Now they must choose to follow their new dreams or going back to their old lives.
Roles (Still trying to decide who’s who):
Aizawa Shouta/Kakureru: Tiana
Yamada Hizashi/Raiu: Prince Naveen
Shirakumo Oboro/Kurogiri: Louis and Ray
All for One: Dr. Facilier
Kayama Nemuri/Midnight: Charlotte
The Doctor: Lawrence
(If anyone has any idea who should play what role in the story, please leave your ideas in the comments)