Yearn - Blog Posts
I need a girlfriend so bad omg, Im going feral yall. How do people even meet people? Obviously, I need to leave the house more(I uh, I dont do that rn), but then what? Bars are a no-go(too young), that's actually the only place I know(the root of my problem, lack of knowledge)
oh how I yearn for MUTUALS THAT I CAN CALL MY WIFY ABD BBG BECAUSE MY FRIENDS IRL DONT LIKE IT ANYMORE AND IVE FELT LIKR SHIT FOR 3 WEEKS STRAIGHT SOMEONE PLEASE
RICHARD SIKEN HAS A POETRY BOOK COMING OUT THIS AUTUMN!!!! OMG!!!!
Mine....
You are mine, no matter if the delicate, warm, golden rays of the sun kiss your skin or the cool, crisp moon accents your body.
You are mine, whether I'm deep inside you, stretching and claiming you as you carve crimson, wet scars in my back, or so far away all I have is your memory in my I mind, feeding the physical ache in my erection as I yearn to devour you once more. P
You are mine when stand on top of the world, filled with joy, beaming with laughter and still mine when you feel broken, beaten, so mentally dark, you feel you have no one by your side.
You are mine because I unconditionally accept all of you. Even the crazy you try to hide.
You are mine because I value and love, every unique surface of your diamond.
For as long as you are mine.... I vow to love you, protect you, strive to make you laugh, hold you when you cry. I will nourish your body and your mind, I care for you with a level of importance.
I will always listen to my good girl, every thought, Idea, way to look at a situation.
I will not dismiss your fears or placate you.
I will strive to leave you feeling loved, desired, safe, needed, wanted and hopefully whole.
You are mine to lose and mine to show I will fight enough to keep it that way.
i’m going to bring you on a roller skating date one day. we’re gonna rent the skates at the little desk with the old painted counter. i’ll hold your hands because you don’t really know how to skate and i used to go all the time. the wooden floors will be all worn down and scratched but that’s what makes it fun. the place is going to play bad pop music from the early 2000s but that’s okay it’s part of the skating experience. we will both probably fall because we were trying to hold on to each other but would we want it any other way ? definitely not
i want to go on an early morning painting date with someone. it’d be a picnic and there would still be dew on the ground getting the blanket wet. we’d have strawberry iced tea and some clementines to snack on. we’d share a clementine by breaking off a piece and giving it to the other. at the end we would have nice paintings of the surroundings. and some badly painted ones too but that’s what makes it fun.
i want to have a porch with a swing and candles and lanterns. there will be hanging plants and there will be lightning bugs. it’ll be late august before i work at a high school in a small town somewhere in the north east. i’ll be happy and listening to the sound of bugs. idk if anyone will be there with me but that’s okay.
i want to give you rose scented candles. personally i don’t like the smell of rose that much but i have the idea of us being old ladies together and they always smell of rose. when we’re old together we’re gonna have windows with the diamond shaped panes and there’s gonna be flowy curtains. we’re gonna be happy i promise that.
concept: we’re in a small house in new england and because the house is really old we end up snuggling. it’s snowing outside and there’s a power outage so we put out a lot of candles. we fall asleep in a blanket fort we made on our living room floor and wake up to cold air and bright sun.
concept: in our victorian house we’re gonna have ugly tile in our small kitchen. our bedroom is going to have a slanted ceiling because it’s in the attic. we won’t have central air but we’re going to have radiator heaters in all the rooms. in the summer we will open the windows because it’s too warm. we’re going to have ivy on the side of house and an unkept garden with long grass. that’s okay though. we prefer it like that.
concept: we go on a road trip in my car and we find a park and decide to sleep there because it’s getting late. we wake up and the windows are opened with harsh warm light and cold morning air coming through. i’m awake because the sun woke me but you’re still cuddled into your pillow with the light hitting your face. i wish that my brain could know this moment like a camera knows a photograph but you wake up and mock me for staring. that’s okay though because i love you.
what if we find the ugliest pajamas at the goodwill off the interstate, we come home to pretend to be really fancy. we eat soup out of the good bowls and have soda in wine glasses. we do fake bad accents and speak like shakespeare.
concept: i get my drivers license and then i come to your house to pick you up. we go to the grocery store, it’s nine at night so the store is soon to closing, and we buy those cake slices in plastic containers. we sit in my car in the parking lot, you connect to bluetooth because i like your music taste and eat cake while it starts to rain. nothing else matters because nothing else feels real.
imagine taking your long distance girlfriend on a hometown date where you get to show her your favorite places and where you used to hangout with your friends after school and going to dinner at your old favorite diner hnn
imagine just existing with a girl no not existing because i don’t want to just exist i want to live i want to be living i want to have a life and be happy and be with a girl because she is perfect and we can go on daily adventures with each other in a small town and we can go to bagel stores every sunday morning and pick up flowers for our tiny apartment before the train ride back home idk i just want this i want happy this is happy
It's december and i miss you yet again
i want her... but does she want me like i want her? does she hug a pillow and think of me? does she daydream of a future together?