pd-posting
Crow | 29 | System | Diagnosed BPD | Questioning NPD | Physically Disabled
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Questioning NPD culture+ sickness is constantly feeling like you're being belittled by being helped but deeply enjoying the attention
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Opened commissions!!
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scrolling the npd tag and scoffing at someone’s superiority complex while simultaneously thinking how i’m so much better than them. Girl
npd + psychosis culture is believing you play a pivotal role in reality that no one can know about for their safety but also REALLY wanting appreciated for it.
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If you're convinced that narcissists are uncaring cold-blooded monsters, you never had a person with NPD trust you enough and it kinda shows why.
NPD culture is PLEASE ASK ME THINGS!!!!! PLEASE BE GENUINELY INTERESTED ON WHO I AM AND ANALYZE ME AND TELL ME EVERYTHING YOU THINK ABOUT ME, MAKE A LIST IDK BUT PLEASE.
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NPD is never being good enough.
NPD is being isolated from everybody else.
NPD is knowing you will never form connections to people like egotypicals do.
NPD is never being authentic.
NPD is feeling empty inside.
NPD is constant paranoia and the sickening feeling of thinking everyone is going to sabotage you.
NPD is constant distrust.
NPD is self hatred.
NPD is feeling sick when others succeed.
NPD is knowing love will never be enough for you, you need obsession, devotion, to be the most important person, to be the air they breathe, to be worshipped but knowing they will probably never be that to you.
NPD is needing control.
NPD is constantly feeling underestimated and belittled.
NPD is having to be admired by everyone.
NPD is the want to be feared and respected.
NPD is never feeling satisfied.
NPD is competing with socially assertive people and getting unbearably angry at them for purposefully stealing your spotlight.
NPD is nobody understanding your struggles irl.
NPD + BPD culture is needing to be useful and extraordinary or else no one will need nor want me
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BPD culture is I know everyone leaves eventually. I can't get mad at people for saying they're not going to leave me, they don't know they're lying yet. It's a lie they won't know they're telling until they're already half way out the door. I know how it goes. I can't expect anything else.
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Some of you think bpd is the only pd and it rly shows lmao
24/7 fighting the urge to not make everything about me
Here's to narcissists. You aren't evil, abusive, or bad for having NPD. The trauma you went through to develop NPD was not your fault, you didn't deserve it, and I genuinely hope you can heal from it in whatever way is the healthiest for you. I love you, care about you, and wish you the best.
totally forgot to post this
I relate.
So many of my NPD traits come from being told the exact opposite of what the disorder is all about. I spent years and years being constantly told both through actions and words that I was inferior. That I didn’t matter. And I will be damned if I let anyone make me feel inferior again.
That’s really what it boils down to. It’s not about being more than. It's about the intense dread of being less than.
i am human and i am flawed because of it but there is an innate capability to connect in the human brain and i think maybe it's okay to start out by connecting to yourself however that may look
“i respect pwnpd as long as they dont hurt people” ok. anyways here’s to narcs who unintentionally harm or hurt others!!
shoutout to everyone with forget disorders (adhd, DID/osdd, ptsd/c-ptsd, asd, dementia/alzeheimers, schizophrenia, other psychotic disorders, major depressive, chronically ill/phys disabled people with brain fog, people with long-Covid, natural memory degradation, and etc.)
from complex ptsd: from surviving to thriving by pete walker
my dash is like "shitpost" "important sociopolitical event" "fandom fuckery" "queer discourse" "vague hornyposting" "advice for adulthood" "calls for a boycott of companies for xyz reasons" "series of gifs of a show i don't watch" "cute cat" and i think that's how this hellsite was meant to be consumed
ppl will be like ‘i support people w mental health issues!!1!!!’ until it’s about a societally demonised disorder. ppl will be “allies” until they’re asked to stop using psychotic as an insult, to stop equating low empathy with being inherently evil, to stop calling anyone they don’t like a sociopathic narcissist. it’s so telling how people will immediately resort to the exact same ableist language the second they’re not talking about a ‘sympathetic’ disorder like depression or anxiety.
if ur respect for people w mental health issues is conditional on what sort of issue they have, it’s not respect at all.
People with psychotic disorders are neurodivergent too.
People with personality disorders are neurodivergent too.
People with substance abuse disorders are neurodivergent too.
People with tic disorders are neurodivergent too.
People with bipolar disorder are neurodivergent too.
People with dissociative disorders are neurodivergent too.
Neurodivergence isn’t just ADHD, autism, anxiety, and depression. (Plus those last two also get left out sometimes!) Neurodivergence is anything that affects your brain.
“Neurodivergent people hate loud noises” is actually just as valid as a statement as “neurodivergent people have delusions,” “neurodivergent people have tics,” or even “neurodivergent people have low empathy.”
Questioning NPD culture is getting annoyed when people don’t understand that NPD is a spectrum like any other disorder. Yes, sometimes the traits can make someone an asshole, that can happen with any disorder or any mentally stable person. But sometimes the traits can also make you one of the kindest people on earth because NPD is literally viewing yourself as the best and wanting everyone else to agree.
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why does npd make me a massive fucking hypocrite like damn i’m judging somebody for doing something i literally do myself ?????? the fuck ?????
reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions
I love how narc abuse truthers use this as a comeback and believe that this proves any point as if wanting to be on the correct/right side of an argument isn't something that almost everyone wants
hahaha. im so normal. Npd?? literally stands for "normal person disorder" idk what u mean. NORMAL person. normal. ive never even thought anything bad. i have normal relationships with people. i view reality in a normal way... nothing bad has happened to me. i have been treated well by everyone. Which is exactly why theres nothing wrong with me
The dilemma of wanting to bitch and moan to someone, but you know it can make the crash 10 times worse if they don't act perfectly like you want them to.
I feel like there are a lot of people out there who needs to hear this:
If you dropped out of school because of diagnosed (or undiagnosed) ADHD, Autism, ADD, OCD, Dyslexia, Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar disorder, psychotic disorders, schizophrenia etc… You did not fail. The education system failed you.