Bpd Mood - Blog Posts
it's breaking me to cry for nothing
no one
something I never had
and probably never would
it's a longing that has no end
no reason
- after a negative pregnancy test
I can't form so much as a tear
but I seem to be drowning still.
but being numb/feeling empty is a whole another level of worse.
sometimes the emotions get so intense that i'd rather be numb.
animation abt bpd abandonment issues
You said it. ☝🏻
another day another what the fuck
I wonder if you have a song that reminds you of me.
I wonder if I'm one of the first thing you think of when you just woke up.
I wonder if you ever wish I was by your side even for some moments.
I wonder...
Dear Wolrd,
The other day, I came across a video that said when someone is not meant to be with you the universe will do anything to make you two fall apart.
But, can't it see? Can't the universe see that I'm holding on a thread for that person. Can't the universe see that my soul is perishing for the person. And why is it that the universe gives me mixed feelings about that person. Are you confused too universe?
You're lonely?
You mean you write down all your feelings in a journal or as a note in your phone because you have no one to pour them out to who can truly understand you.
I easily forgive people. Rather, I would say I don't really hold grudges towards people.
But why, why is it so hard for others to forgive my mistakes. I am human too. I'm learning and trying to improve everyday too. So, why?
I want to be able to go on top of a mountain and scream to the world that I am yours.
But, it will only be possible if you accept me as yours.
Lately, I've been wanting someone to compliment me.
I have so much self hatred in myself these days that I can't look at the camera or the mirror without my smile fading.
I want someone to tell me that I'm worthy, that I'm not as bad as I think i am and that it will get better.
Unfortunately this sounds so me
date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me
don’t feel very emotionally stable right now I feel beat down and too mentally tired to even speak or move and my mood keeps fluctuating between intense anger and violence and being upset and nostalgic and it’s giving me a headache and I want it to stop and it’s not working
Not my brain basically acting like they’re a god!!! But they basically are so like tf, and I really should stop being this selfish and taking everything for granted when they’re the most amazingest person ever and I don’t deserve them at all whfhwihdjwje
Having a fp is so fucking shitty. Just being so dependent on them for every single thing and the jealousy of quite literally fucking everything including the fucking trees that take their carbon dioxide to make oxygen and shit and the needing to be with them constantly and the percieved abandonment all the fucking time and your life depending on them so fucking much more than anything just flr them to not give a shit about you in the slightest no matter how much they say its never going to actually be true or how much they say and its so shitty. Fuck having fps. I just want to fucking hate them and fucking kill myself. Fuck all this shit fuck it fuck it fuck it why do i have to fucking need them when they just leave leave leave thats all they fjcking do just leave and fucking lie!!!