I Don't Get It - Blog Posts
Me, sick in bed: I should sleep as much as I can so I can get better soon!
My brain: hey.
Me: Oh for ducks sake, what do you want!?
My brain: So, like, remember that we had all these tons of things and ideas that we wanted to do but because we're a procrastinator we never did anything?
Me: Yeah?
Brain : The internet was shut down.
Me:
Brain: we can finish the chapter of our book without any distraction.
Me:
Brain:
Me: Fuck yeah.
Continuation from this
Unrequited love
I feel you around me. You’re everywhere and I can’t get you out of my mind. I love how red your face gets all the time. I love it. The only thing I admire most in this world. I was out with my friends, one of them was all red in the face because of the cold weather but the first thought that came to my mind was exactly you, with a red face. It’s so unique to me.
I don’t know if this is love. I don’t think so. I’ve never even talked to you.
You stare at me. You continuously look at me. But I don’t know why. You don’t talk to me. You don’t dare make the first move. You observe me from afar.
And I think: “What if he’s only curious about me? What if he’s only looking absentmindedly?…”
But I know too well that none of that is true. He isn’t curious.
But I don’t know how to define this.
I attempted making the first move. But he turned it down immediately.
And the next day. I see him again. I had left my glasses in my class, I was having a terrible headache and I just wanted to go meet my friend. So I go downstairs and walk towards my friend’s class. He comes close to me, I stare quickly at him and then I avert my sight to the other side, avoiding him at all costs.
I’m talking to my friend, and she tells me: “He was looking at you!”
I bewildered look at her.
I need help. He is making me go out of my mind. Can’t God help me with this. Or remove him from my life to stop tormenting me, or just make him do something that makes me at least have a talk with him, so I know what his intentions are.
I can’t live like this.
He makes me anxious. Conscious of myself. Before I get out of class, I fix my hair and my makeup. And while going to my friends, I always look around for him. Even if i’m blind. I find him somehow.
Tarot girlies and bros! Please help?
I have a deck that i shuffle as a stim and occasionally try to channel from, and lately ive been getting the same (absurd amount of) cards over and over even when just absently shuffling. Im so bad at interpreting meanings, ive tried googling it and i just cannot understand. Any input would be apreciated!!
Of the major arcana, in order of frequency, i keep getting: wheel of fortune, death, heirophant, magician, justice, empress, and high preistess
Of the minor arcana, in order of frequency, i keep getting: ace of cups, swords, and pentacles, knight of cups, swords, and pentacles, page of cups, and seven of cups
That seems like far too many for a message, but each have jumped out at least three times and some every single time i pull out the deck! Is it something stupidly simple, like those cards are ever so slightly bent or something? It feels so ominous, like this thing is speaking to me loudly and frantically in a language im not fluent in.
I feel like the amount of repitition (aces, knights, cups) is important but i dont know what it means. Same with the major arcana, it feels like its speaking in all caps but i cannot read it.
Ale... po co Gunmarowi wiedzieć, gdzie w świecie ludzi znajduje się most? Bardzo przepraszam, ale to nie wpływa przecież nijak na jego plany. Nie mają jak wiedzieć gdzie miejsca na Ziemi się pokrywają z tą krainą ciemności. Nie wiadomo nawet czy one się cały czas pokrywają, w końcu to miejsce jest powalone. Nie byłoby lepiej wysłać ludzi na poszukiwanie i zabić więźniów?..
me if i actually went to prom
My apple pen is no longer connecting to my iPad.
I'm going to ask something because I genuinely don’t understand it. Why do people say things like: [Character] speaks [real-world language] because they are [real-world nationality]—(or similar things) when they were born in a fictional place that likely has its own fictional language and culture?
I get that it’s about representation, but what does that actually mean in this context? These are fictional characters from fictional universes. I’d totally understand if their story took place in a real location, like in the Marvel universe or something similar, but if the world is completely made up, then its demographics are just... different.
I just find it funny when people say it, because I don’t really get it, and I would like to get it.
Like I just figured out myself, being trans (or at least I’m pretty sure) and now I wanna like talk with people, but like how?
I’m really confused how everyone meets mutual and talks to people. Like I think everyone is super cool, nice, and probably likes to listen to cool music, and I just don’t get it.
Okay I'm officially a fucking fossil now what the fuck is a "incredabox sprunky" and what does it mean when my 8 year old sister is stressed about it's lore-? What the fuck lore are you talking about help-???
Wattpad crack: We're unrealistic and kinda cringe
Ao3 crack:
Like... seriously... HOW?!
This is exactly what I mean.
There isn't an either/or choice that has to be made here. It is entirely possible to criticise that socialisation, explain the risks and strongly encourage women not to partner with men, as well as be there for them if they make that choice anyway, because we're supposed to be feminists and support all women, even if the choices that they make are anti-feminist.
Pretending that me basically saying "let's actually be feminists and remember just how strong a drug female socialisation is, so maybe don't be misogynistic and victim-blame women that get abused" is the same as "never speak against that harmful socialisation" is just ridiculous.
It's reasonable to feel frustrated sometimes when it comes to women still partnering with men, but the rush there is to attack them and blame them for patriarchy grinding them down enough to partner with men despite knowing feminist theory personally sickens me.
And I don't want to hear any version of "but you shouldn't be criticising women when men do..." because if feminists don't keep our house in order and can't even show the basics of compassion over that, the cornerstone of what patriarchy wants, then we may as well roll over and show men the white flag. There's no hope for women if feminists can't even be kind and offer grace to other women.
I love how the concept of female socialisation and patriarchy completely disappears out of the window for some feminists as soon as straight (and some bisexual) women cave into getting into relationships with men.
Kinda wanna runaway. Disappear.
Person: Hey, don't call that MLP character 'Derpy Hooves', that's insulting and ableist! Me: Oh, okay, what should I call her, then? Person: Call her 'Ditzy Doo'. :) Me: ...How is 'Ditzy Doo' less insulting than Derpy Hooves? Person: Well, 'Derpy' is ableist towards people with mental disabilities. Me: And 'Ditzy' is a misogynistic insult towards a woman perceived as stupid, especially if they're a blonde (Which Ditzy happens to also be). ...And you think naming a FEMALE CHARACTER 'Ditzy' is fine?
Can someone explain why people say this? How is 'Ditzy' less bad than 'Derpy'? /gen
Ok so. I've been trying to design Odysseus for a while BUT GOD, HE IS?? SO HARD. TO DESIGN. I DON'T GET IT-
I got every past interpretations of him from history! I TRIED TO BE FAITHFUL, WHILE ALSO WANTING TO ADD MY OWN SPIN LIKE GIVING HIM GREEN FOR HIS CUNNINGNESS AND A RED CAPE TO CONTRAST WITH THE BLUES OF MY PENELOPE DESIGN- BUT NOTHING WORKS.
No, but seriously like wtf is up with transphobia and homophobia??? Like, yeah, I get what it is, but I can't understand why???? Like yeah, hate and bigotry and colonialism and white supremacy and religion trying to encourage heterosexuality to get more babies for the church and so on, but on a fundamental level, I don't get it. I can't wrap my had around it at all on why someone should choose it on a logical or emotional level. Like, don't other people also have basic empathy and love for other humans? Where does all their compassion go? Why don't they recognize the injustice of their hate? Why don't they see how illogical homophobia and transphobia is????
This confusion also goes for racism and xenophobia. Why??? What purpose does it serve you personally?????
I gave him a piece of me i know ill never get back...
I just feel like ill always be stuck. Stuck in the middle of a goodbye. Never feeling that pain, but never feeling that closure. Never feeling the certainty that somethings gone and is never coming back. I will always be frozen in this one time frame. Never wanting less, never having more. Im just stuck.
Why am i never enough for anyone?
What the fuck are you supposed to do when everyones moving on without you? When everyone in your life doesnt want you?
Fuck right and wrong. I'm doing whatever makes me happy. Im going to stop thinking about what anyone else thinks of me and my actions.
- I am who I am. Deal with it.
This guy told me the other day, "i think im gonna be depressed today" as if you can choose it. He doesnt know the first thing about it, because if he did, he would know that it chooses you.
- i really wish it was a choice
I'm usually somewhat negative when it comes to writing, unfortunately. Up until I have to give constructive criticism to someone else, then I'm just like,
"A masterpiece, it could never be more perfect than it is now."
And I'm just like. Why brain? Why can't you be this positive with MY stuff?
Okay, but how does Sam's hair always look so luscious, no hotel soaps can do that, he's gotta carry his own with him or something istg