Latest Posts by kickedbythevoid - Page 6

My family just told me that we are moving back down to my hometown in June. I’m so upset Ive worked so hard to establish my life and support system up here and now I’m going to lose it all, and there is barely any mental health services back there. I am now even more determined to lose enough weight to be hospitalised within the next 3 months so I can stay here longer. They can’t take me back, I won’t let them.

I’ve bee stuck in 53kg jail for the past 3 days now despite consistently getting 20k steps, eating under 600 calories and abusing the hell out of laxatives. Does anyone have any ideas on how I can get out of this plateau? I’m thinking of just fasting until the number drops.

I’m fasting until I reach 48kg or until I can get enough of this fucking fat off me my life has gone to shit rhis is all I have

My body disgusts me I feel so disgusting I feel the fat suffocating me and I keep feeding it I hate myself so much I can’t take this anymore

Rewarding myself with getting my nails done when I reach 48kg !! I want them done so bad I need to lose 5kg asap

STUPID BMI CALCULATOR KEEPS TELLING ME IM HEALTHY

I’m so anxious I’m going to wake up having gained or maintained the anticipation is making it impossible to sleep PLEASE LORD I KNOW IM ON MY PERIOD SO IM GOING TO GAIN AND RETAIN WATER WEIGHT SUPER EASILY BUT I NEED TO WAKE UP 53kg PLEASEEE

I see nothing but fat when I look at the mirror

Time feels so slow when you’re restricting, the past week has felt like the equivalent of an entire month.

while i am very pro-recovery, i am also very very pro bodily autonomy. many people don't get to make all the choices in their life that they wanna make. forcing someone to lose their connections (maybe like getting their acc t3rmlnat3d here) or irl, forcing someone to recover oftentimes doesn't help anyone.

instead of trying to isolate someone from a space where they feel safe, maybe take a step back and ask yourself why you feel so strongly? why do you think t3rmlnatlng an account will help anyone? @n@ **IS** a disorder. terming an account won't magically get rid of that. will making someone start a new account and start over in finding community and comfort do anyone any good?

that isn't harm reduction. i see harm reduction posts EVERYDAY in this community. sharing what supplements/vitamins, sharing healthy low c@l recipes that still give people their nutrients they need, haircare/skincare tips, etc.

i urge people who chronically try to isolate people from what an individual feels helps them, to just think for a minute about what your clear objective is.

also, to the @n@ community; PLEASE try to pay attention to selfcare/harm reduction tips that you may stumble across on here, or even google stuff like "supplements for people who dont get enough nutrients". anything like that you can think of, really.

Introduction

ׂ╰┈➤ Hello! My name is Kassidy / Kas and I use they/them pronouns.

I restrict / binge and purge through laxatives.

I’ve been lurking for a couple years now on and off, too afraid to post anything due to the fact I am undiagnosed.

I have been engaging is disordered eating behaviours for many years now, but feel uncomfortable labelling myself as having an eating disorder or anorexia until I’ve lost enough weight to get diagnosed. (Imposter syndrome be damned).

I want to use this blog now to connect with other disordered people as the loneliness that comes with these behaviours has become unbearable, and document said behaviours and progress as I work towards reaching my ugw.

Mutuals are welcomed and encouraged, and DM’s are always open <3

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I am sixteen (08) and 170cm.

Current weight: 53kg (bmi 18.3)

Goal weight 1: 48kg (bmi 16.6)

Goal weight 2: 42kg (bmi 14.5)

Ultimate Goal weight: 38kg (bmi 13.1)

Block don’t report please!!