Hikkikomori - Blog Posts
needy streamer overload
I bought the game because it was on sale so I don't regret buying it.
and it reminded me of an app called virtual and how you can be a vt-uber and shit. so i said fuck it why not im bored and lonely and might as well be a cute anime girl too.
i redownloaded it
but for fuck sakes its camera is awful at tracking
and im so goddam awful at socializing and i fucking wished it had an app on the pc BUT EVEN IF IT DID MY SHIT INTERNET IS SO GODDAM SLOW AND I CANT DO SHIT JUST LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE
so im stuck here in my room doing nothing but be on my phone and laptop. seeing other people do things i want to do. why cant that be me also. If i can't do shit how am i going to earn money. my anxiety holds me back i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this.
the only friend i have are online but even that is a pain in the ass BECAUSE OF MY SHITTY ASS WIFI THE FUCKING PING IS SO DAMN HIGH SO IM JUST WATCHING THEM HANGOUT WITH EACHOTHER WHILE I JUST STAND BY AND WATCH I CANT EVEN DOWNLOAD FUCKING VALORANT WITHOUT IT TAKING THE WHOLE DAY BITCH ASS CUNT KYS
I wonder if the people who tell me to go outside to touch grass and take a shower really know that I don't even leave my room to go to the bathroom and I shower twice a month
alex introduction ´ཀ`
I go by many aliases but I prefer if you call me alex only. 6teen + mentally ill
fav games: kimi to kanojo to kanojo no koi, cry of fear, silent hill, roblox, little busters! (visual novel), yosuga no sora fav music: linkin park, blink-182, my chemical romance,blood on the dance floor (I do not support btw), and goreshit I LOOOVEE: adam lanza, robbie hawkins, solomon henderson,samantha rupnow,anton lundin pettersson,laaiti ekenstéen,cal gabriel, and colt gray my interests are in in disturbing media, lost media, emo fashion, nazi history, true crime, history,and jirai kei ^_^
psychosis + anxiety disorder + asd + aspd + did
DNI: pedophiles, actual nazi's (corny + go follow ur leader :P), anti-proship, people who make fun of other interests
▄︻┻═┳一 bolded words are favs of all time
