Vent Account - Blog Posts
heh.. guess who made a vent acc…
needy streamer overload
I bought the game because it was on sale so I don't regret buying it.
and it reminded me of an app called virtual and how you can be a vt-uber and shit. so i said fuck it why not im bored and lonely and might as well be a cute anime girl too.
i redownloaded it
but for fuck sakes its camera is awful at tracking
and im so goddam awful at socializing and i fucking wished it had an app on the pc BUT EVEN IF IT DID MY SHIT INTERNET IS SO GODDAM SLOW AND I CANT DO SHIT JUST LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE
so im stuck here in my room doing nothing but be on my phone and laptop. seeing other people do things i want to do. why cant that be me also. If i can't do shit how am i going to earn money. my anxiety holds me back i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this.
the only friend i have are online but even that is a pain in the ass BECAUSE OF MY SHITTY ASS WIFI THE FUCKING PING IS SO DAMN HIGH SO IM JUST WATCHING THEM HANGOUT WITH EACHOTHER WHILE I JUST STAND BY AND WATCH I CANT EVEN DOWNLOAD FUCKING VALORANT WITHOUT IT TAKING THE WHOLE DAY BITCH ASS CUNT KYS
How many times I’ve said I love you this week: 5
How many times he has: …
“He didn’t pass as a boy, and he made for a terribly ugly girl.”
fuck.
“You’re such a twink!” no sorry I’m literally just a trans man who doesn’t pass
Me: “okay the day is finally over and I can finally go to sleep”
My brain: “hey what if they drop nukes”
Plan A: transition, marry my bf, get better at writing and turn it into a job
Plan B:
sometimes i wonder why i even bother with writing lol
How the idea of randomly posting a goodbye message and offing myself starts to feel past 12 pm
Realized today that I jsut genuinely do not remember the majority of my childhood (…only stuff I remember is trauma tbh)
Most of the happy shit that I know happened was what I’ve been told happened
Do I have any recollection of that??? Noooo
genuinely what the fuck is the point
“Oh I’m so excited for my friends birthday pool party!”
My arms/shoulders: 😈
when is it my turn to not be exhausted and in pain 24/7 tho
When you sit next to a classmate bc there are no other free seats and they scoot away the second they see you
Like damn I’m sorry I’m so fucking revolting that u can’t even be near me for five minutes
I’m not allowed to go to therapy and i needed a void to scream into so this blog came to be
About me
- he/him
- I’m a minor, nsfw blogs fuck off
- I’m not as emo as i seem (usually)
Asks are open for vents or advice (tho I might not always be able to give it, I’m here if you wanna talk)
There’s gonna some be fucked up stuff on here yall. Have nowhere else to yap abt it.
Gonna tag triggers as best I can but lmk if I miss one ever pls
