Mentally Drained - Blog Posts
I feel the exact same way sadly
Things I'm good at :
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• feeling like a burden and bed rotting
I’m gonna be honest I wasn’t expecting there to be a lot of love on my tiktok account, but here we are and I’m terrified. I’m so burnt out and I don’t even want to make content right now because everyone expects so much of me. I just need a break.
what do you mean I got mentally drained from one singular text conversation 😭😭😭
BRO IM NOT GONNA PROGRESS ;-;
that feeling when they make ur anxiety seem like "jst a little shyness" on purpose<<<<<<<<<<<
i think im feeling it now
jst like u do
Does it ever happen to you that you suddenly start to cry and you keep on crying but actually you do not know the reason behind it? You just cry!
How are you really doing in life?!
Lately the only thing I've been taking seriously in my life is this blog.𓇢𓆸
I need to out of this school.
There's nothing worth stressing over when there's only one month and a half left. These past few weeks I've been going nowhere, especially after getting a night shift job at Dollar Tree. "A job's a job, there's will be lazy ä$$hats galore so you gotta deal with it." But I'm sick of that motto. I'm sick of my dad saying this same degrading shït over and over again. I'm sick of these fūçkwåds at school being overdramatic anytime I walk past them cuz I got acne (aka ugly) and ig I stink now (yes. I'm self conscious abt that and figuring out how to stop it). And I physically, mentally, and emotionally can't deal with this. Say what u want. I can brush this crap off but for how long? It's draining and exhausting. Just like how ppl don't like me and can't deal me, I can't deal with them. But ig I'm the problem when I say that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Time for me to get personal, these past two months are some of the worst months in my four years of high-school. Hell not even that, all of my four years were shitty. Freshman year was trashy, I dont remember anything from Sophmore year (thx c0víd), Junior year was just... no, and now my Senior year is already off to a bad start. And on top of that, my urge to meet new ppl is hanuting me again. Like I definitely show signs of social anxiety (although I don't wanna self diagnose myself) and for my entire life, meeting new people is a struggle. And no not the "I hAtE tALkiNG tO lArGe CrOwDs" or "I HaTe pEoPLe" shit. I actually mean I physically cannot talk to people, whether it's a large or small group. Fuck I can't talk to another person unless they do it first, and even then I can't hold a convo for more than three seconds. And don't get me started with crushes. Never had a significant other. Ever. And the last time I caught feelings, he thought I was a creep. I'm literally months away from being legal and if I cannot talk to or ask people abt anything then this'll be the death of me.
This close to beating the ever living hell out of my English professor 🙂🤞
I wish I could turn back time,
To when we had our first connection.
I would write our story all over again,
But this time with more experience.
