I Think This Is Gonna Be My New Safe Food Because Oh My God It's Actually So Yum And Only 114 Kcal For

My families ordering pizza *again* for dinner😭 I think I might just take my meta day today so I can enjoy it because ill feel disgusting regardless. God I wish my family was healthy, I did so good today too I only had one thing and it was like 200 calories </3

I finally went and got groceries so I made a little after school meal! Only 114 kcal

3 rice cakes- 104 kcal

Tuna- 3 tbsp- 7 kcal

3 slices cucumber- 3 kcal

For breakfast I decided to have a blueberry smoothie, this is like half of it but it's pretty good, 195 kcal all up

Blueberries- 1 cup- 84 kcal

Greek yoghurt- 1/4 cup- 63 kcal

Milk- 1/3 cup- 48 kcal

I used whole milk because I don't have any almond, I feel like almond would've been much nicer and if I were to do this again I'd just stick with adding water

This is nowhere as aesthetic because my mum made it for me which also meant I had to guess the amounts </3

My guess is:

A total of 299 kcals

Mashed potatoes- 1/3 cup- 85 kcal

Chicken- 1/4 cup- 80 kcal

Peas- 1/4 cup- 29 kcal

Mashed parsnip and carrot- 3 tbsp- 5 kcal

Sunday 5/11

Man I am so tired today😭 I also kinda wanna start drinking more smoothies/protein shakes just to kinda get me out of the habit of putting stuff in my mouth if that makes sense?? I wish I didn't love food so much man </3

I thought I was the smallest out of all my friends so i was only gonna restrict calories for another week but it turns out one of thems taller than me but still only 46 kilos I'm going fucking crazy why can't that be me

Here's what i had for lunch! It's not the most aesthetic but it was actually so tasty, I think I'm gonna have to eat something in the morning because today I was *suffering* anyways this was 133 kcal

It was:

A one egg omelette- 74 kcal

Chicken- 2 tbsp- 30 kcal

Greek yogurt- 1 tbsp- 10 kcal

I added some chilli flakes, garlic and parsley for flavour

A cup of coffee with 1 tbsp full fat milk and 1 tsp sugar which came to 29 kcal

I straight up almost forgot to post today😭 I've almost gotten used to black coffee thank god, sometimes I drink black tea as well because I get a little hungry. This all was 405 calories if my math is right (hopefully it is). I gotta say restricting calories has gotten so easy I've been skipping meals since I was little (unrelated to body issues) but like this is the first time I've counted calories at all, I can't believe that this time last week I was struggling with it

For breakfast I had a couple of rice crackers with cucumber and spices which was 85 kcal

After school I had half a cooked apple with cinnamon and 1/8 cup greek yoghurt, 60 kcal

Mum made mousetraps for tea and after looking up similar recipes I think what I had was around 260 kcal? I'm not worried about being super accurate since my limit is literally 1000 calories

All up this was 956.5 calories and like 850 of them was the pizza😭 I ended up having in order to like, make my mum less suspicious but I actually feel so gross, probably gonna fast until dinner tomorrow. I'm so happy I didn't eat anything before dinner because I was dangerously close to my limit