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I am slightly behind on the 30 days posts; the ones I have missed will be interspersed with the current days'
30 Day Fictionkind Challenge
Day 14: What are shifts like?
There isn't a way to say it that doesn't sound poetic. They're difficult to describe in all actuality, and I've noticed how the feelings have changed as time has gone on. Allow me to use a vehicle analogy. The first shifts felt as though the wheel was being taken from me while I controlled the gas and brakes, but now it feels as if I am still in full control, only taking driving directions from a close and trusted friend.
A shift feels like moonlight scattering across a landscape, like incense or candle smoke permeating a room, like rose petals and love notes. Wholly unique, yet simultaneously ubiquitous.
Putting out a polite request, are there any other Hunter x Hunter kins out there who would like to be mutuals? I haven't found very much in way of community yet, so I'm actively putting out a thread and formally asking now ✨️
How to describe the indescribable? Pale like moonlight, melancholy and desire perfectly intertwined; no one to tell that I'm here.
Something absolutely ineffable about the down periods that bring him out, melancholic through and through
Went to a local beach and collected a few pieces of mother-of-pearl, I think I may carve one into a butterfly, symbolic of the gap between my lives being bridged by what was then, and what is now.
30 Day Fictionkind Challenge
Day 5: Do you fictionflicker?
I do not.
Day 6: When did you realize you were fictionkin? How long have you been in the community?
I would say I had my first inklings and thoughts at least seven or eight years ago at this point. I had been in a very dark place mentally and had been glancing over at the kin community; it seemed comforting in a way I did not know how to voice. I didn't formally identify with it until only a year or two ago. I hadn't been willing to accept the identity because it felt "cringeworthy", embarrassing to admit to. I hadn't made a formal move half a decade ago because I'd been concerned about what it would have done to my already precarious grip on my mental health - how would removing myself further from reality help me cling to it?
Now, in a much more stable place and state of mind, my acceptance comes from a place of simply wanting to harmonize with myself more. It had been something my therapist had suggested, to take a spiritual angle to some of the more internally distressing things in my life. I am at peace with my identity and find community with others here, though I've only reached out to the overall community within the past year.
Lots of answers, but I didn't exactly take a linear path now, did I?
Wondering if my draw towards scents is a way of compensating for no longer being able to sense pheromones
30 Day Fictionkind Challenge
Day 3: Who are you open about it with?
I am quite open about this online, but there are two very close real-life friends of mine that I recently spoke about this with. It went over very well, though I did leave a lot of information more implicit than anything; nonetheless, everyone understood what I was conveying. I am also open about my kin identity with a family member who also experiences kin.
Day 4: Do you participate in the fandom of your source? How do you do so?
I participate quite often! I produce quite an amount of fanart and analysis for my kin, as well as for the other characters he was pictured to be closest with. I am also active in the self-ship community, also with my kintype. It is a bit of a complex situation, but love is always at the core for me, no matter how I choose to participate.
I should mention! I spoke about my kin identity with two very close friends and it went over quite well! I am still respected and had my beliefs (specifically in reincarnation) affirmed as well, and this is an experience I would wish upon anyone who desires it
30 Day Fictionkind Challenge
Day 2: Do you experience dysphoria? How so?
I experience it from several angles, gender of course being a factor for me. I don't typically experience a lot of kin dysphoria, I actually notice more experiences with euphoria. Shoes that add to my height, clothing that drapes over my shoulders or trails down my back, wearing my antennae out in public. Clothing as well - though I can't rule out the gender euphoria aspect, especially here, I find joy in more formal clothing, collared shirts and high-waisted pants.
Very rarely, I've experienced something akin to phantom limbs, feeling exact spots on my back where my wings would have been. It isn't often, but it's at least memorable.
30 Day Fictionkind Challenge
Day 1: What is your fictotype? Are you a specific character, a nonhuman species, or both?
My kintype is Sh.aiapouf from the anime/manga series H.unter x Hu.nter.
While the typing I have is in regard to the character, I would be inclined to say nonhuman species as well - as much as I identify with the character, I identify with his insectoid traits as well.
I'm not entirely sure what I've even read this year, though I may post some pictures of my personal library in place of a reading list; there's a few books I know for certain I've read this year, but I feel it may be an incomplete list.. I may actually list the ones I know for certain and separately list the ones I'm not sure of.
The nature of this blog means that it would be a fantastic place for me to catalogue my reading; it's also making me face the unfortunate reality of seeing that I don't seem to be reading very much this year..
Hello! Could you possibly post a plain text version of the 30 day Fictionkind Challenge? It's kind of hard to read the picture as is, and it'd also be useful to be able to copy and paste the questions directly instead of having to manually retype them.
Sure, I should have done that in the first place, sorry. Posted the original while getting ready to go to bed so I did everything too quickly.
30 Day Fictionkind Challenge
Day 1: What is your fictotype? Are you a specific character, a nonhuman species, or both?
Day 2: Do you experience dysphoria? How so?
Day 3: Who are you open about it with?
Day 4: Do you participate in the fandom of your source? How do you do so?
Day 5: Do you fictionflicker?
Day 6: When did you realize you were fictionkin? How long have you been in the community?
Day 7: What was your introduction to fictionkin?
Day 8: Are you similar to your fictotype in personality? How so?
Day 9: Are you similar to your fictotype in appearance? How so?
Day 10: Link to/tag your favorite fictionkin Tumblr.
Day 11: Have you ever met other fictionkin? In real life or online?
Day 12: Have you ever met canonmates? In real life or online? How did it go?
Day 13: Have you ever met doubles? In real life or online? How well did you get along?
Day 14: What are shifts like?
Day 15: How do you deal with kin-for-fun?
Day 16: What are your thoughts on symbols, flags, etc.?
Day 17: Does fictionkinity connect to spirituality for you?
Day 18: Does fictionkinity connect to neurodivergence for you?
Day 19: Do other people notice your similarity to a character or species?
Day 20: How do you express your fictotype? Clothes, merch, cosplay, maybe even name?
Day 21: What’s something about the fictionkind community that you wish was different?
Day 22: What’s something about the fictionkind community that you appreciate?
Day 23: How do you approach consuming your source? Analytically, obsessively, casually, reluctantly, etc…
Day 24: What’s the worst anti-fickin take you’ve ever seen?
Day 25: What’s the best anti-fickin take you’ve ever seen? Respond to it.
Day 26: What are some songs that remind you of your fictotype or source?
Day 27: What are some other characters/species that remind you of your fictotype?
Day 28: Do you have a favorite piece of fanart? (Better to reblog for this day, do not repost someone’s art.)
Day 29: Do you have activities that connect you to your source? (Food, hobbies, interests, etc.)
Day 30: Talk about what it’s like to be your fictotype.
I've elaborated more in my personal writings I may post here as well, but today is my kintype's birthday. I've been thinking a lot about us, how we blur the lines between what is and isn't real, and I feel so much pride and love. I love being his second chance, I love experiencing the world anew.
Your soul is in my heart, and I feel it every day.
I love you, I love myself. My god, I actually do love myself.
Thank you.
Happy birthday.
Today, May 27th, marks a very big personal event for me, one that triggered a lot of awakening as far as kin is concerned, so I thought that it would be in the spirit to draw a few tarot cards in honor. They're meant to be read clockwise, with the four points representing my past (life), my rebirth and awakening, my current present, and my future. I also always draw a final card under the question of "is there anything else you would like to tell me?"
What I've interpreted here is:
My past - Reversed Ace of Swords. Loss, powerlessness, failure. I wouldn't deny it, there was absolutely a struggle to do what felt right and an immediate fall flat. Failure indeed.
My Rebirth - Reversed Seven of Cups. Grounded, realistic, achievable dreams. Passing over the threshold from idealistic to realistic, no longer able to sustain in fantasy but needing to give myself something attainable; a much more grounded attitude in this life.
My Present - Reversed Page of Swords. Lack of vigilance, sluggishness. A lack of alertness because I don't need it anymore, no longer forced to sustain myself on pure adrenaline, as in both in the distant past and in my current lived past as well; calming down in a sense.
My Future - Reversed Three of Wands. Weakness, lack of knowledge. I believe this is referring to my immediate future - I am moving out of a household with a roommate who I greatly struggle to communicate with due to a variety of factors that make them unreceptive to communication; I haven't encountered a situation where I'm free to walk away, nor have I thought through how I will formally tell them, so this draw feels appropriate for such a new situation.
Extra - The Empress. Action, progress, attainment. Though I struggle now, the struggle will be found to be worth my time; my efforts shall not be wasted.
My kintype's birthday is alleged to be the day right before mine and only now do I realize that I should celebrate it not just as a character birthday as I've been, but also as an extension of my own since. well. kin.
You shouldn't feel caged by labels. They should be a waymark, something to guide you in the direction you wanna go. You can call yourself a cladotherian, even if your "clade" is crocodiles and lizards. You can call yourself objectkin for identifying as an animal. You can avoid all fiction-related labels, even if most people only know your kind from fiction. You can call yourself nonhuman, even if your kintype is per definition human. You can do whatever you want
Playlist Challenge!
I see a lot of “kin playlists” on the “fluffy” side of otherkin tumblr, so I decided to put more thought into a “playlist challenge”! I find it hard to believe that a stranger can “assign” someone a playlist for their personal canon, so why not do it yourself instead?
This is, of course, geared towards fictionkin. However, copinglinkers and otherhearted can also participate!
Despite the tag “ask meme”, this is meant to be one playlist, not a bunch of asks asdfghjk. Though it can be done that way!!
1. A song that personally reminds you of your kintype in general/just has their “vibes”.
2. A song that thematically reflects your kintype in some way.
3. A song that reminds you of a happy or fond memory.
4. A song that brings forth a more negative memory.
5. A song that reflects a significant event in their life, bad or good.
6. A song that tends to put you in a mental or phantom shift.
7. A song that you associate with an important figure in your kintype’s life.
8. A song representing your kintype in an archetypal manner. Down to their base personality.
9. A song that reminds you of your kintype’s past.
10. If there are any, a song canonically related to your kintype, either in the source’s official soundtrack (if there is one) or just a song that the canon source’s creator associates them with.
11. A song that is commonly associated with them that, while not your personal choice, you can still enjoy.
12. A song that reminds you of your current life, is in stark contrast to your kintype, or can easily snap you out of a shift. Perfect end to a kintype playlist.
The stars are calling.
I want to answer, but I don't remember how.
I don't know if I ever knew.
Far out of my reach;
I am permanently grounded.
I can do nothing but watch.
They're reflected in my eyes,
In my tears,
An answer locked away.
Telling myself that some of the violent sadness I'm feeling is a result of it being so late at night already, but I can't help but feel that there may be something more to it
Oh this is my blog! I can put insects here!
Really though. It is exhausting to have to pretend to be human.
Strongly thinking about this when I experienced a very strong shift when I was dusting while listening to Beethoven.
"What reminds you of home?" Chores and cleaning, evidently.
Coming home and metaphorically taking off the little hat they make me wear to reveal my antennae, pulling off the shirt I have covering my wings, existing in my own space as what I truly am
I would say, without hesitation, that being afforded the opportunity to have and engage with a kin identity afforded me the purest expression of love I could have possibly ever encountered. All things familiar, yet simultaneously new; multiple experiences coalescing into one.
Nothing but gratitude to experience life again and to be given so much freedom of choice; to be able to read and dress well and sit in the sun, the simplest of pleasures becoming unspeakably valuable.
Nothing but love during each of my shifts, nothing but love for the way the identities bleed over into each other, complimenting one another. Familiar experiences through unfamiliar eyes, the joy of the world shown to a cynic and a misanthrope, learning about the good of the world time and time again.
I would not trade it for the world.
Actually wore my antennae out of the house today and realized I didn't even feel nervous about being seen with them. I got groceries while wearing them and felt something almost akin to pride, a deep-seated contentment.
Yes, this is how it's supposed to be.
"What reminds you of home?" Chores and cleaning, evidently.
Must also say! I don't usually have phantom limb sensations but I can't shake the one day I could distinctly feel where my wings would have trailed down my back
The nature of this blog means that it would be a fantastic place for me to catalogue my reading; it's also making me face the unfortunate reality of seeing that I don't seem to be reading very much this year..