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If you love her, show her don’t tell her, actions speak so much louder, if she complains when you’re home late, when she is ill with you when you make plans and don’t include her until you make sure it’s ok with ever one else. She is yours she loves you. She needs to know this back, not by words or assumptions. Put her on a pedi stool and see what all she does for you.... just an idea...

If you wanna do you ima do me!

50 posts!

This is so true!

Toughen up buttercup... I remind myself of this from time to time!

Had to repost! I tried so hard to go forward with him.... we just can’t seem to get it together!

“We can’t go backward. There are too many regrets. Please just move forward with me?”

— Renee Carlino, Swear on This Life: A Novel

Smh!

Things are so different, everything has changed. We have changed, I’m not so sure that I know anything at all about you, sometimes I wonder if I ever really did.

Wow nice to know that there are other like me....

This year has been so stressful, draining, and long! My best friend has completely wrote me out of his life. After everything we’ve been through, I’m lost. I feel so hurt, and abandoned. I tried working things out with my ex, even tho I knew it was a bad idea I still went with it, like every other time, seems like we callin back into the same routines. Idk, I’m 6 feet from the edge, somethings has to give, I’m so tired of being good to others just to have them make me feel like I don’t mean shit...

How did we go from that to this...

And it begins... the days are not so lonely. And it’s not because I worked myself to death and made sure not to What is this? Is this that “time” thing he couldn’t explain, but it’s loud and clear now! And so it begins....

It’s crystal clear, idk wtf is wrong with me, why am I still trying to make excuses for him! I’m nothing to him. Not even a friend, I could except everything except loosing my friend, I just want to know what happened why is it like this now...

It’s supposed to be a special day for him, I see that I’m not a part of this, ok I’m learning.

Facts, smh

Life is so busy sometimes, it definitely keeps me preoccupied for the most part, but there’s that time of day, when everything is quiet and still no chill cause damn, then I’m left to deal with forgetting you... forgive and forget right? That’s how I’ve been taught my whole life... my ignorant self jus needs to forget.,. I feel like that’s where healing begins... I’m usually pretty good at this part. Totally the unfortunate time to fall so deep that when you realize it’s there, that you’re feelings are passionate, and exotic with someone that may be the same as you, or as close as you assume it could get.... then to see changes, like a light switch as soon as my guard hits the ground, I feel like I almost hit the ground myself, I must be wrong, I must’ve been fooled, and in some of the worst ways... like automatically backtracking, life situations cause if I’m wrong about this, then I really must not know anyone at all, or I’ve done something fucked up to someone to be catching this shit. I know me, I treat people right, I help others if they need and I can, I stay in my lane, if someone needs me I’m here, so it’s me, I’m ignorant, how do you forget what made you feel this, what played like a friend yet lived like a snake in the grass. Fake, has to be or it would be different, we would at the least be friends, I felt like I bonded with you, it’s not possible to go from that to this.... my head is killing me! I’m jus ready to forget.... Tomorrow is a new day, fresh start... there has to be more to life, good people, somewhere... I’m not gonna let anyone change me... regardless of what anyone else may feel, I kinda like me, I’m a Gemini so I’m a little different but I’m good to others, I smile at someone just because I may get a smile back, and I do what I say. I don’t steal, I may talk your head off or not say two words, I’m a loner at times and a social butterfly mix, yeah. There has to be other good, honest people somewhere, ugh!

Damn, I just want to forget about him, us, forget that I ever met him! He did the ultimate deal breaker, it’s got to be over, dude were you even my friend, cause with friends like that I damn sure don’t need any enemies.... smh

I feel you

“Too shy to say, but I hope you stay.”

— Billie Eilish / come out and play

On that roller coaster ride! Hands up! Eyes clintched tight! Ima do it with no hands!

Still not one word. I feel like I just got befriended, betrayed, forgotten... this isn’t like me, I’m used to how people are, why do I always think so positive about people who her so evil, fake, and as always I’m without someone that I thought I earned trust from. I understood his issues and what I didn’t know I would figure out. But, ya know, obviously he wasn’t special, I am always good to people even when others say they don’t deserve my time, I’m always looking at every side of a situation. That’s the Gemini.... I’m not changing for anyone, but it’s so hard to try and build with someone to begin with much less continuously having to or wanting to try again to let someone new in to your circle as some call it, but I do keep my friends that are real and give them everything that a friend should! Im so emabarassed that I let him so close, I guess time will heal that...

I was a good friend to him, I brought him in to my home, my family, my friends. I let him cry and hurt and tried to help him through his divorce. I got close with him. I thought we were best friends, then one day just it’s like I’m this scum that he can’t be around per his X ya know, I would’ve told my X to get fucked. Then he treats me different. Don’t seem to worry about different, I could never be so cold. I hope that losing me as a friend is what he wanted cause he fucking got it!

I think I’m over it! Not seeing him definitely helped. I feel a lot better. I feel like I’m kinda free. Not that he held me down because I made my own choices. I accept that. Fake is what it is, FAKE! I kept it 100! So my conscience is clear. I’m probably never gonna be more than a friend with benefits anyone else. He was my last hope as far as relationships go. I look back at what it was about him that I really missed and tbh, all of our time was spent with me trying to build him up and me working on his self esteem. I guess it worked. Mission accomplished! Time to move on anyways!!!

I’ve been almost a week without him. He made it look so easy to walk away. I’m not sure if I ever meant anything to him at all, at this point I don’t want to know. I just want to forget about him. Close that chapter in my life. I’ve been through this like 3 times, the other 2 men both ended up regretting their disicissions, so not only did I have to get over them, then after I was at the point of over it and no more pain, then I had to be the one that said no when they want to try again. That whole not knowing what you have til it’s gone is bullshit. When something is special to me it doesn’t just get old. Some people want to have that moment to see someone that hurt them, hurt. I don’t want to see anyone hurt... I don’t want him to ever want me back. I’m just ready to be over this and feel better!

Never thought about it like that

How am I ever gonna be just your friend?